Just a short update here. I have been so busy, another month is almost ending.

Good news :

I got my new iPad 2 and a good cheap case for it. It was the bersih weekend when there was a batch of stock which came into Machines. You all know I work weekends, there is no way for me to go out in the day. My bf did not volunteer to help me buy although I told him there is stock in Sunway Pyramid. He lives in Subang.

Honestly, I am still angry about this. As a gf I hardly get anything from him. Not even helping me to buy a gadget. I was sad the whole day knowing that they will soon run out of stock.

However, luck is with me, I saw their FB update the next day and went to get one at Sunway Pyramid on Sunday morning… with my mother. She paid for my new iPad 2 wifi+3g 16GB in exchange for the iPad 1 32GB wifi+3g. I think this is a fair exchange.

Bad news :

Been trying to go for holiday. Tried making plans with the bf but end up with nothing. Everything is over budget because our budget is low. First of all he is poor and does not plan for anything. The reason our budget is low is because I want him to save more. I am not even sure if we will end up together. My dream of having my own home with someone is not anywhere near. My heart is dying, I am crying inside.

Due to his poverty, I always put things on hold. Trying to save money for everything. I will have more money if I had not pay my car fully, bought all the necessary insurance, bought a studio apartment & have a retirement plan which I am still paying a sum every month for another 6 years.

Sometimes I really do not know if this is wise. Saving for the future, don’t let the bank make money out of interest. I really hope to have a big windfall to pay off my housing loan and have money to “live”. I don’t consider myself living at the moment because I have a dead life due to money issues. No progress or whatsoever, no new phase in life.

Of course I want to go for holidays. Lets just say that I have not got a bf who can give me that as a present. I also do not have a wonderful job that allows me to travel. I am just stuck here working 7 days a week with not enough money for holiday or buying more pretty clothes, doing my hair kind of thing.

I hate this world. I hate my life. I need change, I need to get away from all this for good.