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I want to tell  instructor EJ that I’m not giving up but swimming needs to be put on hold. If I take lessons now, it will end up the same like last time. All I did was attend class with no practice. My dad took me to class only, I did not practise at all. Unlike music, I was made to practise at least 2 hours everyday.

First of all, no time. I work 7 full days a week. Secondly, no swimming pool. I don’t think I enjoy swimming when I need to rush in traffic.

I’m not giving excuses because I don’t have time for decent hours of sleep, no time to clean up my stuff or my room even. My days consists of waking up, work, eat and sleep. I long for holidays which I don’t get to have until the end of year. Even then, I have to give priority to my mother because she needs it more than me.

We work hard because we need the money. If you’ve been in contact with sick people before, many are not given the best that they can have but we gave the best for my dad all the time. Spending money is one thing but being there can be depressing. My mother and I, we can never travel together. Someone must be home and it is either me or her. Forget about my siblings.

To the parents out there, when your children are successful and making big bucks, they won’t be here to take care of you. Just remember that. If you’re so lucky like my parents, that means one of your children is sacrificing his/her own life for you.

Some of you might say why not find a man and get married? It’s not that easy. Who does not want someone who has everything? Others have their own problems and difficulties too. I guess my life is not made to be that ordinary and simple.

I cannot complaint because they’re my parents, I have a job, we live in a nice house and we can afford what we need.

For me, I am looking forward to the day when I can live my own live, free of the weight I’m carrying with me now.