We are still maid-less at home. So when my father has to go for hospital appointments, one of us has to take leave to go with my parents.

There was an appointment yesterday and I took leave from work.

My emotional well being was so much better when I did not go to work.

I notice I am able to:

1. do housework and don’t feel tired at all.
2. don’t mind waiting for long time at the hospital.
3. don’t mind driving out a few more times to run errands.
4. don’t mind others’ mistakes and willing to settle problems without being angry.
5. don’t mind traffic and parking while going to pasar malam when the hot sun is shining still.

This is the real me and how my life should be. I am not a lazy bum or someone who stops learning ever since she left school. I need to work because I cannot live without a paycheck. Even with a paycheck I have not been spending money on clothes, make up or holidays. Why do I work myself to exhaustion and do not get to enjoy life?

This is the stupidest thing in my life, going to work day in day out on some meaningless job.