Monthly Archives: May 2009

Standout in life

Most bloggers have done the Standout in life for some beer company sponsored party in town. I am not going to promote the party nor attending one. This topic is kind of interesting to share here.

Is it good to standout in life? Most of us want to be outstanding in something good. However, life may not treat every outstanding person fairly. Do you not agree? This explains the failures we face in life. Maybe I shouldn’t use the word “failures”, “shortcomings” is more appropriate.

Anyway, if I have to say something that makes me different from most people, here they are:

  • I worked with Lee-hom for a couple of years. I met his mother on several occassions. Both our moms met before and this started while I was in university and during the first few years I started working.
  • I co-written a song in one of Lee-hom’s album before.
  • I can play the piano, I draw and paint.
  • I have 9 years of experience with excellent credentials and I am still an exec in my current job.
  • I work 7 days a week; a full-time job, a weekend job and freelancing. Yet I am merely surviving.
  • I am outstanding employee known as the one who got thumbs up from the director and I am getting peanuts from the company. I am the only person doing all the web designing. My employer owns a dozen or more subsidiaries which includes hotels and shopping malls.
  • I have old and sick at home to take care of and I am single with no one to support me.
  • I had breast lump removed 3 years ago.

Do I sound like I want to party? Absolutely not.

Need to unload

As usual, the weekend went by real fast. I had classes after classes.

That’s all I do on weekends. I’m not complaining because it is good money for me. The reason for all the venting is due to situation at home. What is new man?!

My current days and nights are affected by only one thing at home. The one thing I wish I can delete off like we do with files in our computers.

Then I can have a normal life like most girls. Go shopping and traveling with mom, spend more time with boyfriend, visit the sister, go out have fun. Most important of all -  be able to focus more on my career. Right now I am the one who should take leave to stay home or quit the job because it is paying me peanuts. So if the home needs that, I will be the one.

Gosh, I’m not even married. Aren’t these problems meant for people who are married with in-laws and kids?

Maybe I won’t have to deal with all this if I’m already married and left my house. I could still be a good daughter you know but it’s not going to be a 24/7 thing at least.

I ask myself over and over many times. Why? What are the options? Why is there nobody who can help make things easier? Why am I here? Why isn’t there something for me out there?