This coming weekend will be the actual day for Cheng Beng. This is the day where Chinese families go and pay their respect for the deceased. I went to my grandparents’ grave today. Many people had already done their visits last weekend. I could see quite a number of graves with candle sticks left over around them.
Anyway, I was told that the location and design of one’s ancestors grave is suppose to bring good luck to future generations. I used to think and I still hope to believe that if we go and pay our respect dutifully, our my grandparents will look upon us.
Somehow, the things I experience at work and at home don’t seem to be a result of my hardwork on carrying out my duties. Why? Because some people who do nothing for the home and family got everything that a person with a good life has.
Do I still care about carrying out my duty for the home and family? I do it for my own concious sake and I still want to believe good things will happen to me. However, there is one thing beyond my grasp. Do my elders love me? Are they bias and love some golden child more like they used to be when they were alive?
Some things don’t change even when people had already passed on do they?
What happen to punishments? What happen when someone is not doing a good deed, has no respect for others and being dishonest?
Can I still keep on believing and praying?
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